Thursday, March 26
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34
I'm a planner. Perhaps it's my engineering background. Or perhaps I'm an engineer because I'm a planner. Regardless, I feel most comfortable when I know what's going to happen. This is my normal. Tomorrow is going to be ok because I have a pretty good idea of what's going to happen.
The problem, I've determined, is life. While life can be beautiful, life is also slippery. Often messy. And life definitely pays no attention to my plans. And it's always some random day, when... everything... changes.
In 2014, for Sharon and I, that day was a Thursday in June, when we lost our son, Paul. At this point, it's still too soon to see the lessons. Perhaps they're there. But for now, as we go through that first year with holidays and birthdays and other anniversaries, the grief is still too big. Like having a giant weight on your chest and it just doesn't want to loosen up.
And yet... I have no doubt that God has been with us through this ordeal (although to be honest, I can't say that I've always felt that). But I have seen it, in several ways (particularly recently) where things that had absolutely no business of working out... just did. Coincidence? Maybe... but I don't think so. I think that perhaps this is God's way of reminding us that we don't need to worry about tomorrow so much. He's got it under control, and for us to remember that today is what matters.
So take that extra moment... right now... tell your spouse that you love them... play with your kids... call your Dad... or visit an old friend.
Because tomorrow doesn't always come... all because of a random Thursday. Yes, life is slippery. And that's when God says, "Take My Hand".
Lord, I give you tomorrow... Beginning today. Amen